… if I’m not happy?
Against what appeared to be very stiff odds, I got a seat on yesterday’s flight. In a text message, my dad said: You have great karma today! (He is the reason I get these great flight benefits and so he knows what it’s like to hang out in airports when you get bumped from the standby list.)
So my friend picked me up and we had a wonderful visit over lunch. And the adventure of life rippled out from there.
So a public < < Thank you Jesus! > > for carrying me home on the time table I was hoping for!
But still the perplexing question:
Is it the work of the Holy Spirit if I’m not happy?
It’s a great question to wrestle with… pause and think about it for yourself.
There’s a tension in it… right?
Not long ago, I posed this other question to a wise friend of mine:
Where is the intersection of God’s will and mine?
He chuckled and said: Where do you think?
Immediately I answered: Not fair! I asked you! (Although in the context of our conversation, he had every right and reason to push the answer back on me.)
At the bottom of the story, I said: I can live with it… but I don’t like it.
He chuckled again… and said: That’s the tension talking.
Co-operate: operate together
The work of the Holy Spirit… the will of God… and my internal desire to want to cooperate — co-operate — requires that I live in the tension between the two sides. Some days I am more willing to shift toward God and other days I am stubborn… entrenching my feet / pointing my toes homeward to my side.
But when I consciously realize what’s going on inside me, I fall back into Job’s prayer:
God… help me want what you want.
It’s a hefty prayer. Give it a try.