When You Lose the Desire
It’s awful. It’s discouraging. It’s lonely. I feel worthless… unsure of myself… uncertain about everything.
I feel rejected and dejected. I question every good thing in my life… and I whine…
God… why is everything so hard for me? and so easy for that other person?
You never give me what I want.
It usually deteriorates from there.
Big hurts squash my desire.
And the more I dwell on the hurts… with the sole purpose (of course 😉 to process and reconcile them, the deeper and darker the hole goes.
There is a certain amount of working through the pain that is required to heal. The rest is probably self-indulgent wallowing.
When you lose desire, there are only two options
Either stay lost or get found.
I love this new t-shirt that I recently bought.
Being found is so much more fun!